My new journey in life has begun, i have a new address, new surroundings, new friends, new obstacles, new everything to sum it all up. I have lived in lawrence with Nathaniel for about 1 month. And honestly i have never been happier. I thought just being with Nathaniel made me wonderfully joyful, but living with him, falling asleep every night by him, cooking together with him, watching movies, walking mass street, going to clinton lake, hanging with friends, even shopping with him is perfect. Any fighting that had happened while we were apart, has ceased to exist. Life is grand, my birthday is in 2 weeks, i'll finally by 18 =]

Being away from family, has been a tad bit harder than i thought, i miss my dad's dry humor, and fuzzy beard!, my mom's love, and thoughtfulness , and my dog =[ i miss his energy, playfulness, and eagerness to play shake =]
But i cant say as much from the friend aspect. Because i never really saw any of them that often anyways, Carrie yes at church, and we did hang out, but Raven & Christian, i basically just saw them at school and or football or other school events.
So im at a peak in my life where new situations are arising, along with new relationships, and opportunities. So here i go jumping feet first into a dark lake, not knowing whats below the surface...
Ive applied for a TON of jobs,
Goodwill , Target, Hobby Lobby, Borders, Library, Buckle
but have only gotten 2 calls, better than nothing of course. 1 is the library my job title would be library page- aka shelve reader, and putting things away. And its only part time. I would work between 3-5 4 hour shifts a week. Im afraid thats not going to be enough to survive. So a second job is in the looking process. Im working on a application for a store on mass street call creation station, its a funky hippy clothing and jewelry store and it seems really awesome. So thats good =]
Im just thinking that working as much as possible now (before school starts towards the end of august) would be best. Aw yes college. =s
Am i happy ? or excited well i'll get back with you on that one. See considering my credits got all outta wack (thanks hoe bag Ethiopian big bird rodeo clown counselor Ms. Robison) I HATE that woman! anywho, since that was all weird im not able to attend KU in the fall =[
Thats been a huge dream of mine since i was a little girl! Ever since my father started my passion for Mens Basketball there. And now i have to wait, i feel like a failure to myself, my family, and most importantly Nathaniel. He's succeeding like crazy right now, with this "coop" job at the nuclear power plant. I am so inspired by his mathematical talents, yet i'm scared shit less of the next step in my own education. I'm going to Johnson County Community College and at the moment am not excited. i had to take a "placement" test and bombed the grammar part.. =s and didnt do to well on math =s So im having issues with my smartness self esteem.

On a lighter note, i've gotten all kinds of wicked good pictures lately, with all the beautiful surroundings and what not.

Im just gonna keep on keep on =]
Smiling, because im blessed, and happy!

And have the world at my fingertips..
My future. My Everything . Life is waiting .. =]

-Clarissa

ps - question for whoever reads this.. should i post some poetry? eh?